When Can I Just Be Me??

Life is CRAZY!!!! Sometimes I don't have time to breathe, let alone sit down and blog!!! Ha!! Maybe I need to try and learn to better prioritize my time or something! I have just been super busy the past couple weeks! Between cheerleading practice everyday, fine arts, prom, homework, work, and all the other facts of life, I just haven't been able to find time to sit down and share whats been on my heart. I'll get to that in a minute though!! First I just thought I would give you a little update on whats been going on!! Fine Arts was last weekend and I could not be more proud of how well everyone did!!! Even though some of us procrastinators waited till the week before hand to get everything together, we did awesome!!! Prom was also that Friday night, and I had an awesome time!! It was so much fun!!! Cheerleading is just as crazy and annoying as its ever been!!! Somehow I seem to love it though. Haha! Umm...schools going pretty good...although I'm very very ready for summer!! Well I guess thats about all thats been going on. Lol

So lately with everything going on I can't help but feel that I'm never good enough. Not just to everyone else, but especially to myself. I think one thing I've learned about myself is that I'm my toughest critic. In everything that I ever do I always walk away thinking about how I could've done it better. I just never seem to be satisfied with anything!! It's a flaw! I don't know, maybe I'm stupid to even think that way, because I know there are talents that God has blessed me with. It's just I'm so critical of everything I do!! I realize that people watch me, and I guess I want to live up to their expectations of what a "perfect little pastors daughter" should really be. I kinda feel like I live my life on display, and every step I take is being watched. I'm tired of having to be good enough!! When can I just be me???